The journey never really ends.
I haven't always stayed on course. Heck, I haven't always stayed in the car! But I know where I want to go, and I think I'm ready to get there now.
1. I no longer think of where I am in relation to where I once was (cough- 60ish pounds heavier - cough). I am where I am RIGHT NOW and it is not the right place for me.
2. I'm not afraid of my Goal anymore. It used to terrify me. The thought of finally hitting it and then possibly (probably) gaining some back every now and then, aka "being human", sounded too much like failure to me. I've lost a lot of weight, put some back on, and lost some of it again.
This is a big task for me. It's not in my comfort zone. But I've heard that "magic happens outside your comfort zone," and I believe it.
I have to make lasting changes to what I eat, how much I eat, when I eat, what I eat in restaurants, on holidays, vacations, weekends, at parties... how I handle stress, success, love, loneliness, boredom, happiness, sadness, fatigue, good news, and bad news
Planning, goals, perspective, time-management, stress-management, ATTITUDE, accountability, support...
There is so much that goes in to turning around an aspect of your life that is a struggle. Luckily, all those things I mentioned are not needed to be dealt with all at once or even all alone.
But you can see why obesity is not a simple fix.
And I'm a young(ish), healthy person with the time and means to focus on a goal other than survival!
So, this is all to say that no, I haven't given up. I just wrote this post, didn't I? I didn't even bother to make it clever. It's where I am right now, though.
Blaaaahgging about my weight loss joooourney help a lot for a long time. I'm not really sure why I stopped??? I have less than 20 pounds to go, so here I am. I had a loss this week. Nothing big but satisfying.
Lesson learned: Overdoing it in the first half of the week is NOT worth the late-week scramble to not gain. I'm smaller than I once was and therefore what might not feel like overdoing it, really can be at this point in time.
Goal for the week: Wean off the diet sodas. Not good for the body. Period.
As a side note, I thought some of you might find it interesting to know that although my weight is higher than at my lowest, my clothes fit differently because of my fitness level. I'm not much bigger than I was 15 pounds skinnier. Interesting, huh? Ok, maybe not. It's getting late and I already know I'm going to regret hitting publish on this in the morning!